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| so lately i've been really upset about something. something that i thought i was so over. this person has been in my life since i was like 9 years old, and despite everything we've been through i can't seem to say good bye. i know that i so messed this relationship up, and i'm trying to fix it, but its seems like no matter how much effort i put out there i get nothing in return. i was listening to my iPod the other day, and a song came on that always makes me think of us, and i got so sad. i mean i can remember certain things or certain conversations that we've had for almost all of the dashboard songs that i have. it sucks cause they are one of my favorite bands, and every song reminds of a time when i was so happy. man... freshman and sophomore year were def the best. i dunno... i know we'll be ok eventually, but i just wish that we wouldn't waste all this time over something so dumb. maybe i've just grown up and realize that this petty fights that we get into aren't worth it, because when we are actually friends things are so much better. i dunno... this has just been on my mind for a while now. i just wish we were ok.... | | |
| not too much has happened since i posted last. i just got back from michigan visiting cornerstone again. it was alot of fun!! i can't wait to go there. the new semester started today and i've never been so nervous before in my entire life. i hate speech and i know that this semester is gonna be alot of work. i don't have time for that, with church and work it already consumes so much of my week. i just really hope i can make it through this semester. as long as i dont' miss any school and get atleast a b in speech i'm soo exempting that exam. government i'm excited about!! i have an awesome teacher and the government hours shouldn't be too bad. i just can't wait until the summer and we graduate in 4 months!! summer 2006 is gonna be the shit!! lol... ok lata! | | |
| i'm sooo glad this year is almost over. this was awesome up until september and then it sucked. it's like the 8 months before that were amazing, but the last 4 just were horrible. i would do anything to change them, but i can't.... so it's time to say good-bye to 2005. along with this year being over there are going to be many changes in me. it's time to say good-bye to someone, even though i hate to do. i just can't handle it right now. for the time being i'm better off without them. | | |
| I GOT INTO CORNERSTONE!!!! i'm so excited and i think that i've finally talked my dad into letting me go there. partly because they are giving me $5000 off for having "good" grades. also my freshman year i get a free laptop, and they give me a new one my junior year. if i go to cornerstone i'm going to study business management, because it will give me so many more opportunities... i can't wait.... i just want it to be next august, i'm sick of stupid b-s high school drama. i've also realized that anything that happens this year to upset me it won't matter because in 8 months i won't have deal with these people anymore!! i just think that this is the present God could give me! i'm so happy right now, and alex comes home today, and i will hopefully get to see him. man, do i miss that kid!! there are some things that we have to work out, and i'm kinda scared about it, but i know that it will all work out in the end, because what is suppose to happen will. and if what i don't want to happen God must not have planned for me. ok, well i'm gonna go take a nap... lata kids!!! | | |
| wow... i haven't posted in a long time... i guess life has been goin pretty well... i've just been working so much, and buying people presents. i just can't wait until christmas is over (which is weird because I LOVE CHRISTMAS) cause i need to save money for college. i sent in my application to cornerstone university yesterday which, is my first choice of colleges... so hopefully i'll get in! i already got into purdue, but that's my back up school. so.... it's snowing, and i'm so happy!!! it's almost christmas!!! ok... well i guess i'm out have fun kids!! | | |
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